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I've always loved you.
You know that already.
But I can't take it.
I just can't, don't you see?

Even though you know
That I still do love you,
Don't you understand
That I can't be with you?

I need you to know
We can't be together.
And I know that you
Can go find another.

Its not hard to do.
'Specially with your charm.
It just can't be me.
That will cause too much harm.

"Its hard to explain."
Isn't a good excuse.
But I just can't stand
All you loving abuse.

All your loving does
Is cause me s… Continue

When I tell you I Love You
I don't think its enough.
I feel I have to prove it,
But it just seems so tough.

I want to show you the heavens,
I have to give you the sun.
I must give you the world,
But it just can't be done.

I want to show you everything in the world.
And anything else you'd like to see.
I want to give you everything and the world.
But all I can give you is me.

I want to give you the choice of
The stars in the sky.
Or the Garden of Eden,
Wherever it may lie.

If I could give you… Continue

Sometimes I sit here and wonder,
Why must I suffer through life?
All it has caused me is pain.
It causes me misery and strife.

I don't really understand it.
Did I come all this way just for pain?
Or is there some other purpose?
Can sombody please make it plain?

I need somebody to help me!
Can somebody help me live?
Or am I just here to suffer?
To stop it, what must I give?

Is there a reason I'm here?
A reason for me to survive?
All life has caused me is pain.
Life is Pain, and Pain is Life.… Continue

Lost Again

I thought I had it,
But I didn’t.
I though I found it,
But I just got lost.

I had to get it,
It’s a matter of life or death.
It pained me so much
To know what it had cost.

I can almost hear it,
Singing in the distance.
I couldn’t see it.
It was nowhere to be found.

When I close my eyes,
I see it in my mind.
I can hear its singing,
It was getting loud.

I opened up my eyes again.
I saw the path to my right.
It led back to the way I came.
I didn’t want to go that way.… Continue

-I'm typing this because somene told me that if I talked about what happened, it might make me feel better. So, I'm giving it a try.

~Blood. That's all I remember. Blood, and a lot of screaming.~

-It was dark and I was in my room. When I heard my sister scream, I knew there was something wrong. I jumped up out of bed, and ran to her room. The first thing I saw when I slammed open her door was a big, hulking, hairy figure on standing on her bed. I turned to flip on the light, and… Continue